Sep 26 2011
She wears her scars with honor
No beauty there
No flowers of fragrant grace
No sunshine memories airborne and beaming
Her pennant colored by each criticism
That reduced her size bit by bit
The stains left by tears for her father
Tattoo her heart.
Copyright 2011
Sep 11 2011
Moments of silence
Names look out from walls
Survivors reflected in rushing water
Words of remembrance…
It does not bring them back
But it helps to keep them close
May we always remember
May we never forget
Copyright 2011
Oct 25 2010
Everyone has a story
That old saw is a favorite mutter -
a tried and truism
But we do have our own stories
of failure
of success
of getting by - by getting along
Of making choices that led us astray
and decisions that led to wonder
and I can’t fucking believe this…
But we keep the story to ourselves
because no one asks
Because there is only time to tell
our own stories
our own regrets and mistakes
missteps and meanderings
Only time to tweet and post to the wall
favorite and stumble
the many details that must be
disseminated
in hopes of the hotly contested
15 minutes
And if we wonder, we do it in passing
Filling in the blanks with our own experiences -
rejecting the reality with our
own lack of resume
Am I my brothers keeper?
Cain didn’t think so and neither do most of us
And when we do, the ACLU
ensures we pay the price for our curiosity
and invasions of helping hands
If Oprah or CNN doesn’t care
if it’s not on The View or the Daily Show
if it doesn’t expose colossal frailties and weaknesses
it’s none of our business
We don’t need to know
And it’s time to move on to
the reality show of choice
Reality that is scripted and real only
to those vying for the prize
But everyone has a story and
if you ask and you really want to know
people will tell you
copyright 2010
Jun 20 2010
My life changed
when you left
in ways small and
subtle
Parts of me left
the best parts,
I fear…
Since then
I’ve stood on wobbly legs
for you were my rock
Bottled up doubts
for you were my confessor
Led with my fears
for you were my champion
I’m still confused
not quite sure
you’re really gone
My heart wants to believe
but my head won’t let it
It’s the saddest
day of the year
when I celebrat
your absense
(with tears and solitude)
I guess I’ll never
stop missing you
but that’s okay
because I don’t want to
Wherever you are
whatever you are doing
Be happy
Laugh a lot
and if you don’t mind…
think of me once in a while
copyright 2010
May 21 2010
I’ve always been maverick
a wild horse seeking higher quieter ground
watching the world from private precipice
with wary eye and distrustful gut
My inner tinkerbell
ever searching egress to escape
and when she does slip through
an unattended window and acquaints herself
with freedom
the laughing and dancing goes on for days
sometimes weeks
But she is always caught
and returned to her bottle
Unable to understand
the dangers out there
the beasts who intend her
harm
Only seeing butterflies
and sunshine
she cries behind closed doors
begging for blue sky
and unfettered freedom
I cry a little too
but I am dedicated to her safety
vigilant in her protection
no white knight
looks after her heart
or shields her from murderous fools
hungry for her soul
copyright 2010
May 13 2010
In sleep I invite
my mistakes to enter
Replay the scene
move the furniture
fix the lighting
rewrite the dialogue
re-shoot the scene
Take after take
but it still comes out
Wrong
There are no do-overs
no do it agains
no going back
no editing or airbrushing
no time travel
to set things right
There is only
the will to do it right
the next time…
copyright 2010
May 09 2010
They come to me
in the night
The traitors dressed
as friends
taP at the windows
of my house of sleep
Luring me from
slumber’s arms
to make their case
prove I’m mistaken
show me the truth..
And they rob the stars
from the sky
Chase the moon
behind the clouds
Crawl into my head
natter on…
relentless and shameless
Saying I did them wrong
yet begging forgiveness
Swearing love
but meaning harm
copyright 2010
May 07 2010
Time heals all wounds…
Does it? really?
What salve is time?
What comfort is a ticking clock?
What wisdom lies in seconds, minutes, hours?
What is the shelf life of heart ache?
The statute of limitation on pain?
The cut-off for suffering?
New days come with the sun
and from the heart
Memories fade as new memories
are formed
Life grows out of the will
to reach for tomorrow
Time cannot heal me
but I can
Time cannot comfort me
but life does
The best smiles
are spontaneous and unexpected
copyright 2010
Apr 02 2010
Looking back
at all things past
I cannot look forward
unbearable that tomorrow
Second guessing
I cannot trust
first guesses
always wrong
Who is that
wearing my clothes
speaking my voice
owning my thoughts?
Where did I go
why am I lost
where is my hope
what happened?
copyright 2010
Jan 30 2010
crooked tree my life
searching benevolent sky
looking for sparkles
copyright 2010
I imagine that yes is the only living thing.
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