Jan 11 2007
Was It?
Was it true love
what we had?
Soul Mates true
or passing ships?
Meant to be
of meant for the moment
Do you wonder?
What if?
Am I there
hovering in the back
of your mind too?
Do I lurk
in your soul
as you do in mine?
After all this time
is the memory fresh
as today’s sunrise
or yesterday’s news?
Copyright 2006
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Oooooo…. those are exactly the kind of thoughts I vowed never (again) to have about anything, especially not about love. I prefer the risk of a blast of rejection (as I know it’s not deadly) to the lingering, nostalgic pain of ‘what ifs….’. Having said that, nobody’s perfect, especially not me
. Sarah, spread your wings and fly!
oh spaz you make me laugh. i think perhaps i am just exorcizing some ghosts - do you know what i mean? and perhaps when i’m done my wings will pop out and i will fly. that is a lovely thought.
sarah
“Do I lurk
in your soul
as you do in mine?”
This really got to me….I think everyone we meet leaves an impression on our soul…some more so than others and whilst I’ve lost people who I thought were my soulmates admist a lot of pain, I regret none of them nor the time we had…without them I wouldn’t be the person I am today….
Kelly
i agree, kel. i think everyone we meet does make an impression on our souls. and you do learn and grow with each impression.
sarah
How very haunting Sarah.
Quote: i think perhaps i am just exorcizing some ghosts ….
By all means, exorcize away. We (your readers) are definitely the winners here!
Jennifer
interesting choice of words. i say ghost and you say haunting - appropriate. you know sometimes i guess you really can’t decide what memories, thoughts, ideas spill out on your page - sometimes they just come. in a way i like that better. thanks for all the encouragement jennifer (and everyone) because i think it is having the effect of bringing out much deeper and honest writing from me.
love,
sarah
Reflection: our weakness, or our strength?
Sometimes it’s nice to have a moment alone with a memory; other times, a mere echo of the past in the air can be suffocating.
Love your stuff.
very astute observations kirk. i love your ’stuff’ too. in fact, i need to add you to my blogroll.
sarah
This is interesting. It is easy to assume that all memory is a pychic or telepathic connection to another person. We don’t want to be alone with our memories, and yet, essentially, the way that we remember someone is never who they really are anyway. And yet we hold the facet of their being that touched us. We hold that fragment.
yet another good point - i like the fragment concept - recollections of others usually is fragmented, isn’t it? i wonder too, what makes one memory/moment stand out so loudly among the rest? i’ve noticed that lately, that something will just come along and smack me in the head. strange, eh?
sarah
I think that the ’smacking of the head’ comes from the fact that there are some things you may think you’re over; some people that you think you’re over. Yet, eventually something will come back to remind you of a certain time/person, and it’s that element of surprise; the “where did that come from?” that catches you off guard. I think it’s the writer in us that makes us over-analyze a certain facet of our lives-whereas to someone else, this type of thing is normal. They maybe expect it, and know how to neatly compartmentalize the little nooks and crannies that make up who they are…past and all. However, we’re saying…”this would be a good story, no?”
interesting take on it, kirk. i do think that writers do over-analyse things - to be sure. but i also believe that writers, generally speaking, are simply more aware of what they are feeling and thinking than say the average joe (if there is indeed such a thing). perhaps that is what makes some of us writers? and absolutely because of that perception, a story is certain to be inspired.
i’ve often wondered why i gravitated to writing - why others do - in what way it is a contribution to the world at large and i’ve come to several possibilities; first i think that writers value communication above all other things and that is really their essence. i also think that writers want to help others with their observations, is that imparting wisdom? experience? i’m not sure. and lastly, i think that writers use their writing pursuit to work out questions, problems - things that upset and delight. anyway, that is my theory.
i’ve enjoyed our exchanges kirk, i’m glad you found me.
sarah
I agree we do have the ability to put into words what others can only feel; I hear that all the time (and not necessarily because of a piece I’ve written, even in general conversations). I don’t know if I’m imparting wisdom or not, but wouldn’t that be great? My world would be much easier if everyone thought like me. (LOL)
Kim
kim (i apologize for getting your name wrong) - i agree - life would be ever so much easier if everyone thought like me. now that would be quite a world. although - after a time it might get boring.
sarah