May 25 2009
Crave
Closed in. Trapped. Craving space.
Craving quiet. Lonely.
So tired.
Unwanted. Cold. I shiver in the sun.
A cliche. Past its prime. out of sync with the rest.
Lost in a sea of tumult.
Turbulence.
Beyond the bend of agreement.
Gnawing at the edges of rational thinking.
Empty
What lies inside?
Not safe to go there.
I am the debris
of an exploded star.
Gravity pulls but doesn’t capture
the spray of particles
that hover and dance away in approach.
Nerves jitter and jag
Flop me - a lifeless puppet
soul drifting toward no space, no time, no thing.
Alone. Always alone.
Distant. Disconnected.
Passing time with cigarettes and
desperation (dispair-ation?).
Friends wear foreign faces.
Home is a closed door.
I am invisible.
copyright 2009
7 responses so far
Okay, I get it. So powerful and beautiful! You are an artist with words. I’m grateful that you have this outlet. Have you sent anything out yet? Until you get another job, why not let your poetry be your job? Just a thought.
hello dear and thank you for visiting. yes, you do get it but most don’t know, so we keep it to ourselves.
i would love to make poetry my job, unfortunately, it doesn’t pay well. still, we keep trying. 
sarah
I totally love this, your words and images are compelling. You are so much star-material when you wax stellar like this. Solitude, space, and desire, now all occupy my mind in your space.
sarah
hi tom,
so good to see you again. i’m glad this piece spoke to you - it has a special meaning to me, as well.
Hello Sweetheart. Isn’t it time for another poem? Just asking. Love you. Sharie
yes, it’s always time for a new poem - if only the muse would cooperate.
sarah
Really love this poem. The desperation just oozes out in those small little sentences. So relate-able for me.
hello peggy and welcome,
you rightly noticed that this was about desperation - i’m glad it communicated to you.
sarah
Hi Sarah,
What are the words that describe this? Poignant. Moving.
This made me very sad, but I have to say it a great poem. It affected me so.
Take care. Hope things will be well soon.
~Sherma
hi sherma,
yes, i suppose it is sad - but you have to let the dark out in order to let in the light, yes?
sarah
for some reason, i can’t leave comments on rain on the sun…
sarah this is some really great stuff…i love how you’re using the emotion right now and really going for it, putting it all out there…really amazing stuff..
kim
sorry dear, for some reason my spam program found your comments tasty.
yes, i guess you’re right - i am using the right now - it’s different, more immediate, more visceral even - i think i like it. 
sarah
Love this.
hello jeff turner,
very long time. good to see you. thank you - my dark side is fun sometimes.
sarah