Jul 14 2009
Why?
Why?
is my question
Why?
is the answer
I need
Why?
is what keeps me
in bondage
Why?
keeps me awake
and asking
Why?
is what I will
never know
copyright 2009
Archive for the 'my heart' Category
Jul 06 2009
Only
You only wanted me
until you had me
until I said yes
until I was yours
forever
You only loved me
from very afar
at arm’s length
in your mind
from the world of what if?
You only touched me
when I wasn’t there
when I couldn’t respond
when it no longer mattered
You only needed me
until I needed you
until I reached out
until I proved imperfect
flawed
and unlovable
copyright 2009
Jun 11 2009
Where? is Home
Broken sleep
dreams deprived
of dimension
Looking for home
I want to go home
Where is home?
Mind aims askew
time ticks away
Focus lost
Looking for home
I want to go home
Where is home?
Mistakes logged
no do-overs
doomed to the future
Looking for home
I want to go home
Where is home?
Wandering soul
seeking the safe
any open door
Looking for home
I want to go home
Where is home?
words & image copyright 2009
Jun 04 2009
Rain on the Sun
It rained on the sun today
I sat on the stoop smoking
watching the drops saturate the earth
Doubts haloed my head
like the mist that rose from the grass
after the light gave up the sky
Nerves quieter
yet the mind still raced
ticking off laps –
a mad jogger
who is late for the race
For a flash I saw a different me
A future existence
I liked her, that woman I was
in that tiny moment
neediness absent
confidence, yes, but quiet
no anticipation, just certainty
And then I was me again
I was tired.
I am tired.
The pain is dull,
not sharp and jagged as it was.
Sad, soft but always there.
I need sleep without dreams.
A warm place to float
copyright 2009
May 10 2009
Snow…
the silence of the snow
remembers me
and carries me back
to you - to us - to then
the icy dreams
scratch at my soul
freeze frame moments
that land in frosty dreams
and melt then
in morning light
words and photo - copyright 2009
Nov 11 2008
Home
I’ve wandered the way
taken the steps
collected the things
that make a life
And never found home
I’ve sung my own song
danced with the moon
journeyed my lessons
and learned of the light
And never found home
I’ve met my own mind
in the quiet hours
followed my heart
toward the big and the small
And never found home
But the road made a turn
that led me to you
(my darling)
time stepped aside
(for us)
fate made an entrance
(at last)
And now I am home
(you are my home)
Nov 05 2008
when
It’s hard to write when
you’re happy
The words insist
on laughing
The prose jumps
and winks
the meter sings
its own song
and things are too
sweet to chase after
them
The sky is too blue
(like your eyes)
the sun too bright
(like your eyes)
for inking thoughts
for stringing images
and shaping metaphor
Time doesn’t matter
details don’t care
The ether is clear
the road is open
the hills roll forward
and the path
leads us home
at last
copyright 2008
Nov 04 2008
Give Your Troubles…
Give your troubles to me
my friend
let me tend them
for a while
Close your eyes
Set your mind to roam free
my friend
let it wander the stars
and dance the skies
Rest your head on my shoulder
my friend
that is what it is for
The worries can wait
there behind the door
Give your troubles to me
my friend
because I’m stronger
than you, today
let them go far, far away
copyright 2008
(for mh)
Oct 22 2008
Open Book
I have no method of writer divine
No savvy technique that I define
Just simple thoughts from my heart
No secret sage to impart
I write the words that come to me
Without judging meaning or symmetry
simply state what I find true
And hope like hell it speaks to you
My book is open for all to see
no poet’s guise to shelter me
My pardigm is just my view
My eyes are yours for looking through
copyright 2008
